Thursday, November 30, 2006

sick.

I am teh sick.  My kidneys hurt.  I'm trying to water them, but my stomach says no.  I think there's a feud between them.  I went into instacare last night to get a saline drip, but my lungs were apparently so dehydrated they sucked up all the water.  Stupid lungs.  It's air you need!  AIR!  so they had to shut it off so I could breathe.  Once the fluid drained from my lungs it all went to my stomach which promptly rejected it.  Oh well.  I tried.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Balancing Act

I went in for a balance today. That's hippie speak for energy work. That's also hippie speak for....ummm...voodoo.

I love getting balances! It's like taking all the things that are stressing you out and causing physical/mental/emotional symptoms and removing the stress so your body can heal. What I love is that I always learn great life lessons after I have a balance. So, what did I learn today?

What I love about the gospel is that we all have the spirit and we can all receive our own revelation. I also love that I don't have to answer to anyone but God. I love that every challenge we have is an opportunity to grow. I love that I can pray to God but that He also blessed me with a well functioning mind so I can make my own decisions and learn from them. I love that He knows when to let go of my hand and when to hold it.

I've been second guessing myself because of some things people have indirectly said about the way I should live. My balance helped me to let go and be present in my own life instead of making others live it for me. So many times I think we worry about how to be a good mom, or a good wife, a good sister, a good worker...whatever. Maybe there'd be a lot less stress if the focus was on being a good "me".

Friday, November 24, 2006

"Doorbusters"

I hate them. I got $100 off my new camera and a free pack of DVD+R's, but I think I'd rather pay the money next time. This was my first time shopping on "black Friday". I usually like to participate in Buy Nothing Day, and we're just not big shoppers in my family, but I saw the sales and thought, "why not? That's something I've wanted for months". But then I keep looking at ads and can't pass up all those great deals. Maybe it's just electronic stores (circuit city, best buy) that suck though. I was in and out of Sears in 15 minutes, and Office Max, later that day, even gave me a raincheck for the memory cards they sold out of. The sales at the craft stores weren't even worth going to.

But anyway, it felt like semi-controlled looting. Complete madness I tell you. I got the very last one of the camera hubby and I had been eyeing but they were out of everything else. I grabbed it and got in line and waited for 3 1/3 hours to check out. I felt like a freakin' communist.

Next year I'll leave the shopping to all you shoppers out there. I think I'll stick with my counter-culture anti-consumerism....after I finish buying the rest of the things off my list tomorrow, of course.

Monday, November 20, 2006

It's beginning to look a lot like springtime

The weather is, well, nice. Breezy. I think we need to move further north. Like, Hammerfest.... I started hanging up my Christmas lights. I start early so I can have it all done by Thanksgiving. I'm one of those obnoxious people that would bypass Thanksgiving all together if it wasn't for the pie. I love pie. But once that's turkey's in my tummy I go right into Christmas season. The nice weather makes it easy to climb my trees and shimmy up raingutters. I could just buy a ladder, but where's the fun in that? Nope, I go old school.

Perhaps some decorative lighting will appease the snow gods and they will grace us with some frozen precipitation. If that doesn't work I bought a bike this weekend so maybe "murphy's law" will kick in.

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Diagnosis: endometriosis

That awful, awful pain in my abdomen finally has a suspected culprit. Of course, the only way to actually diagnose endometriosis is a laparoscopy, YUCK! Surgery is also one of the few ways to treat it, including a hysterectomy (no thanks). So we'll try hormone therapy and see if it helps (it does in some women) and of course the usual rounds of alternative therapies. Meanwhile, I get all the pain killers I want. So if you know anyone whose had success treating endometriosis without surgery please let me know. I'm open to a lot of things. For now, I'm willing to give some BC a try, as long as it isn't the pill. HA! I guess God really doesn't want me to have another baby yet :)

And yes, I can smile when I say that.

He's also worried I'm pre-diabetic. Which really pisses me off because I've only been "unhealthy" for about 3 years. 3 years! I spend my whole childhood eating brown rice, broccoli and Chex and then 3 years of fast food and sugar (and like, no exercise) mess me up. Lovely. And just in time for Christmas.

No, I'm actually blessed to get a heads up. I'm glad I mentioned my symptoms (and he noticed my insulin levels) so I have time to turn things around. Looks like someone's getting a new bike. Woohoo! :)

New Bike