Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Making Room

I had a long talk with my husband yesterday. I love long talks with him :)

Anyway, we talked about how cluttered our lives feel and when did it start? He said, "Well I think it started when we got married and our parents dumped all our old stuff on us." And what did we do with all that stuff? We have just kept it. Held onto niknacs from our past to remind us how we were once incredibly awesome. All these old awards I've clung to because I can't remember the last time I won something. Old letters from friends because once I had way more than I do now. Old hobbies, blankets, wedding gifta that were never really used...

What we came to realize is that our main priority right now is our family and that we've spent so much energy clinging to who we were, we haven't been able to be who we are now. We haven't made room in our lives for our kids.

How depressing is that?!

I love my kids. And yet, I've spent more mental energy and physical space worrying about maintaining an image that no longer matters. It was an eye opening conversation and one that has made me do a lot of thinking. And A LOT of tossing. I threw out so much highschool stuff and it was LIBERATING! I think about other important people in my life, have I made room for them? Am I holding onto too much past that I can't move forward with my life?

It also got us thinking about how much room we make in our lives for the Savior. Does he get our large amount of space, or is most of it used up maintaining an image or used up by things that we don't really care about anymore? I could probably write a whole 'nother post about spiritual clutter, but everyone's is so personal and different I'll leave you to think of it on your own. Something worth thinking of, though, I think.

I totally drew a Christmas comparison with this too, like how there was no room for Him at the inn... Right? Now I have a topic next time I'm asked to give a talk. Sweet!!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

a small house post

Most days I love my home. I am able to fit everything I own and it provides everything my family needs. There are days though I get very caught up in appearances. I start wishing I had a bigger home to "show off" to people. Or I feel like I need to apologize for not having a room completely devoted to entertaining people. I hate feeling like that.

I become frustrated often because it seems nearly impossible to find any people in the "small house movement" with families. None of their advice fits my family. Where do you put food storage? And don't say under the bed because that's where the gift wrap and winter clothes are. What about feeding 5 people in an eat-in kitchen? I seriously don't get where people put their food if there's no pantry. My cupboards are filled with dishes. When kids share room and there's only room for a bunk bed and a dresser, where do they do their homework (I always had a desk)?

These are the things I am trying to figure out. My biggest dilemma is eating. I have a dining area in my eat-in kitchen, but right now it'sbeing used by my deep freeze and a cabinet to put food storage in. If those weren't there, it'd be ideal for a largerish table. one day I'll figure it out and post awesome pics.

I really should post pics again some day...

What are your small home dilemmas? Any solutions?

Saturday, November 7, 2009

#3

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Should be done cooking by the end of May. I'm honestly suprised I waited this long to say anything (I'm 11 weeks), I'm so bad with my own secrets. I hope you'll forgive me for breaking with custom and "announcing" it a week early. Consider yourself lucky. The facebookers all have to wait 2 more weeks til I hear the heartbeat (seen 5 weeks ago, but, well, you never know).

Most of the day I feel like poo. But I'm happy poo.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

"no matter how bad things get, they can always get worse"

I started writing a whiny post about how exhausted I am and then kept thinking about all the people I know who totally have it worse than me. I know a lot. I wouldn't trade with them for anything.

So instead I'm writing a meditation on small things I am grateful for right now.

pumpernickle bread. I wish my whole house could smell like pumpernickle bread right now. I've been inhaling small pieces all morning.

my daughter twirling around in circles and wearing a feather boa. I can get lost in watching her.

My husband bought me tulips in my favorite colors: orange and yellow. He saw them on sale and knew they were perfect. He was right.

an nice overcast afternoon. Fall really is my favorite season. Nothing like cool air to perk one right up!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Oink, Oink

So we found out today that the boy has swine flu.  It's not confirmed, but all the kids in his preschool have the same illness and one of them had it tested and confirmed.   I actually don't have a ton to say about it except it's like he has the flu only slightly better because there's no sore throat.  The cough really sucks though and the 105 + fever the first day wasn't something I care to see again.  But today it's a nice 102.5.  The problem is baby girl broke the portable dvd player and he has to stay in his room so as not to infect others so he's bored out of his mind.  Nevermind he got a bunch of cool legos and stuff for his birthday last week.... *sigh*    What did moms do before tv??